I did it again. I CAN'T believe! I did it again. How can I be able to do something like THAT again?! HOW?! I feel so bad... I know I'm wrong, about almost every word I said. But I can't change... I don't know way, but it's so hard for me to just keep calm and don't let that little nerves monster dominate me...
I'M SORRY. 

Already 2 people said to me to think about a psychologist... Maybe...?